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Some of you have already heard me go on about this, but I'm back to wondering if I should start preparing to take the foreign service exams. This was my original carrer goal, lo those many years ago. Things changed, I became less enchanted with the idea of being a woman in a quasi-political role, I fell in love, got married, put down roots... and then sold my soul to Uncle Bill, which kind of took all of my energy for a while. I thought I'd gotten over this particular urge.

Partly I'm really frustrated with the state of international relations. (Not to say I'd be looking to join up immediately -- this is partly based on the hope that the Shrub is pruned in the next elections.) Partly, I'm sure, I'm still working through my post-MS load of existential angst. (To repeat: it's not that working at MS really gave my life meaning, but it sometimes provided a good illusion of meaning, usually kept me busy and distracted, and filled enough financial goals that it was arguably sufficient for those days at least.)

I really would like to be a career diplomat. Scary, huh? It's not the only thing that I'd like, and it certainly is something I feel more strongly every time the political situation frustrates the heck out of me.

I do kind of shudder at the thought of declaring worldwide availability. And unfortunately, for the things I'm most interested in, it doesn't look like hiring on as a civilian is an option. (Or I would have already tried to do that, a year ago.)

Gah. I'm probably nuts.