Stress

So, I met with my PT today. She showed me some strengthening exercises, and otherwise I'm going to take a little time off, maybe try something else. (Things might actually be getting better, but I'm frustrated, and letting it sit makes the most sense.) I might see a physiatrist again.

But as we were talking about a more than usually esoteric range of things that might be effecting my back (because in theory I should be able to compensate for the injuries, though then again there are a lot of injuries) she mentioned that yeah, maybe I left Microsoft, and perhaps am not under that kind of stress, but I seem to live a stressful life.

This actually surprised me... well, at least until I thought about it. I have been trying to live a calmer, more centered life. But on the other hand, I like being productive, and I hate being bored. And in general I suffer from a great fear of not accomplishing anything and wasting my life... (and when my body isn't working, I get pretty frustrated. Which is probably a lot of what Kendall sees.)

So I'm kind of wondering what a less stressful life would look like. I like the idea of adjusting my mental state more than that of doing less. (Though there are certainly things in my life that I might be better off without. Hmm.)