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Jan. 25th, 2008 01:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tylikEven with staying home and napping, I feel sick. Not particularly miserable but tired and light headed. (Whenever I get lightheaded, I drink water. Hey, with my blood pressure that's a really good idea, not to mention all the other things that don't work right when I'm dehydrated. Erm, just for the record, all evidence supports that I am adequately hydrated right now.)
By five local time, I need to decide which class I am going to drop. I was going to drop the fun but relatively easy one. Then yesterday I was having a horrible time following the derivations in the other class, and started thinking that perhaps I should take the fact that I don't have the prerequisites, even if I have the professor's blessing, seriously. Of course, two hours later I was freezing cold and unable to articulate "there is a folder under my name containing many axiograph files on the macintosh next to the rig where Jeff and I usually work". So it may be circumstantial. This is not the best day for making this decision.
I'm going to go over the homework assignment that is due the week after next, and if it looks reasonable (reasonable means "I can kind of see how to do this, and can probably get it done by the time it's due without ending up in tears") I'll probably keep the more challenging class. Ulp. Yes, I have a good intuitive feel for differential equations. But no, I have never learned them properly. At all, really. And then there's the argument that really, I'll have no lack of things to do this quarter, and wouldn't it be nice to actually be taking classes for which I'd had all the prerequisites? Frankly, throwing myself into classes for which I'm only nominally prepared is a very efficient way for me to learn. But I've been doing it constantly for the last several years, and it's stressful. And not the best thing for my GPA, either. Bleh. There are a lot of reasons to keep the fun class.
After yesterday it was kind of encouraging, honestly, to look down at my last several pages of notes during calc hour this morning and remind myself that yeah, honestly, I can do math, and I even like it.
By five local time, I need to decide which class I am going to drop. I was going to drop the fun but relatively easy one. Then yesterday I was having a horrible time following the derivations in the other class, and started thinking that perhaps I should take the fact that I don't have the prerequisites, even if I have the professor's blessing, seriously. Of course, two hours later I was freezing cold and unable to articulate "there is a folder under my name containing many axiograph files on the macintosh next to the rig where Jeff and I usually work". So it may be circumstantial. This is not the best day for making this decision.
I'm going to go over the homework assignment that is due the week after next, and if it looks reasonable (reasonable means "I can kind of see how to do this, and can probably get it done by the time it's due without ending up in tears") I'll probably keep the more challenging class. Ulp. Yes, I have a good intuitive feel for differential equations. But no, I have never learned them properly. At all, really. And then there's the argument that really, I'll have no lack of things to do this quarter, and wouldn't it be nice to actually be taking classes for which I'd had all the prerequisites? Frankly, throwing myself into classes for which I'm only nominally prepared is a very efficient way for me to learn. But I've been doing it constantly for the last several years, and it's stressful. And not the best thing for my GPA, either. Bleh. There are a lot of reasons to keep the fun class.
After yesterday it was kind of encouraging, honestly, to look down at my last several pages of notes during calc hour this morning and remind myself that yeah, honestly, I can do math, and I even like it.
