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Oct. 21st, 2007 01:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tylikRandom thought (probably one of those "you had to be in my head" sorts of things...)
Last night I dreamed about an ex, an ex from quite a long time ago (okay, an ex was in the dream, I don't know if I could say the dream was about an ex). Not that common, not particularly unusual. Had been a particularly difficult parting there.
Thinking about the dream, and the ex, it occurred to me that whatever else I feel, there's very little bitterness. A certain wistfulness, a certain amount of reverse nostalgia, some missing... well, parts of them, really. And people tend to come in only people sized packages, you don't get to say "I'd like this order of creativity, only hold the viciousness and the crazy".
Which is okay. And kind of off topic -- what I'm noticing, is that there isn't a lot of bitterness left. Not the exes, not my father, not the really awful boss... perhaps I managed, finally, to let go of the bitter. I'm pretty sure I've eaten enough of it.
Last night I dreamed about an ex, an ex from quite a long time ago (okay, an ex was in the dream, I don't know if I could say the dream was about an ex). Not that common, not particularly unusual. Had been a particularly difficult parting there.
Thinking about the dream, and the ex, it occurred to me that whatever else I feel, there's very little bitterness. A certain wistfulness, a certain amount of reverse nostalgia, some missing... well, parts of them, really. And people tend to come in only people sized packages, you don't get to say "I'd like this order of creativity, only hold the viciousness and the crazy".
Which is okay. And kind of off topic -- what I'm noticing, is that there isn't a lot of bitterness left. Not the exes, not my father, not the really awful boss... perhaps I managed, finally, to let go of the bitter. I'm pretty sure I've eaten enough of it.
